Things have been very difficult for me lately. It is sooo much more work than I expected to adopt, and probably more to come. :)
Some days I wonder what in the world have we gotten ourselves into. We wouldn't change it for the world, though. We want to adopt Priscilla and we want her as our daughter, so it is not that end of things, it is just the headache to get there.
There are so many documents to go through and what has really messed me up the last few days, is that we have to have everything finished within a certain date, if it expires, Priscilla's country would not accept it. Which wouldn't normally be a problem, but they will stop accepting the documents for a certain amount of time. So, do I work real hard to try to get it in before they stop and risk it not getting done in time and have to start over, not to mention losing money along the way. Or, do we wait a couple months to start the process. Aghh!
We have decided to wait a little bit before starting that process, of course, there are still things to be done, we are still working on our homestudy. Which doesn't seem quite as difficult, yet still time consuming. And, on top of that, I have children to care for, a house to keep clean, a husband to love, toilets to clean, diapers to change, need I go on? And then what about fundraising. Oh, how I wish we just had all the money in the world, it would make things so much easier.
Some would say, maybe that is a sign that we are not to go on. But, we Know without a doubt this is God's will. God has a heart for the orphans and He is all about adoption.
This brings me back to my post title, Peace of God. My good friend, Courtney, called me this morning and read a scripture to me, Phillipians 4:4-7. It has spoken to me in so many ways. I have been crying since then, I have just been hit with the Lord's faithfulness. He is my Peace, he is my provision.
I will write another post in a while and say what I got from the verses. The kids are needing me :)