Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Peace of God

Things have been very difficult for me lately. It is sooo much more work than I expected to adopt, and probably more to come. :)

Some days I wonder what in the world have we gotten ourselves into. We wouldn't change it for the world, though. We want to adopt Priscilla and we want her as our daughter, so it is not that end of things, it is just the headache to get there.

There are so many documents to go through and what has really messed me up the last few days, is that we have to have everything finished within a certain date, if it expires, Priscilla's country would not accept it. Which wouldn't normally be a problem, but they will stop accepting the documents for a certain amount of time. So, do I work real hard to try to get it in before they stop and risk it not getting done in time and have to start over, not to mention losing money along the way. Or, do we wait a couple months to start the process. Aghh!

We have decided to wait a little bit before starting that process, of course, there are still things to be done, we are still working on our homestudy. Which doesn't seem quite as difficult, yet still time consuming. And, on top of that, I have children to care for, a house to keep clean, a husband to love, toilets to clean, diapers to change, need I go on? And then what about fundraising. Oh, how I wish we just had all the money in the world, it would make things so much easier.

Some would say, maybe that is a sign that we are not to go on. But, we Know without a doubt this is God's will. God has a heart for the orphans and He is all about adoption.

This brings me back to my post title, Peace of God. My good friend, Courtney, called me this morning and read a scripture to me, Phillipians 4:4-7. It has spoken to me in so many ways. I have been crying since then, I have just been hit with the Lord's faithfulness. He is my Peace, he is my provision.

I will write another post in a while and say what I got from the verses. The kids are needing me :)


  1. Crystal,
    Adoption is a long, hard journey...there is just about no way around that. But it is so worth it in the end. Keep looking up and stay fixed on the calling God has set before you. He will make a way through seeming impossibilities! Hang in there.

  2. We adopted from RR last spring, and I'm sure at the time of preparing the dossier i thought it was hard... but, looking back on it now, it didn't seem too bad, more like a speed bump to our little guy.

    It's kind of like the pregnancy part....can be tough and seems to last forever at the time.

    But soon, it will be complete and out of your hands and THEN the REAL fun begins!!!

    We LOVED our time in Ukraine. LOVED IT! We can't wait to go back. In fact, I'd like to take a couple of years and move there. But that's another story.

    When you walk into that orphanage and see your child for the first time....well, there's nothing like it.

    The best is yet to come! Keep plugging away :)


  3. Hi Crystal! I'm a friend of Marisa G's and I just think it's so cool we are both adopting thru RR and just happen to know Marisa -LOVE her :)
    Your Priscilla is a cutie pie, I look forward to following your journey to her. Believe me when I say it will ALL be worth it. We leave soon to travel to our Liza and I just can NOT wait!