Wednesday, June 1, 2011


I just read a comment on my blog, which I deleted and it has made me really upset.

Whoever you are that wrote it and for any other people who read this, know one thing, I love Kaylee, and I love children. And never would I only adopt a "normal" child or think that any other child deserves to stay in an orphanage. That is not what I think and that is not what I meant about Kaylee being so smart.

I only was writing what was in my heart, that is what a blog is for, right? Or do you just want only the happy and pretty stuff?

I do carry Kaylee wherever I go, I put her in a sling, I try to keep her with me, I take her from room to room with me, so don't even judge me for leaving her or being sad that she acts like a baby. I am not sad that she acts like a baby, sometimes she does act more like a baby and sometimes she acts like a two year old. I wouldn't trade her at all, yes, sometimes it is hard, but no I do not expect her to be anything other than who she is, EVER. I will always love her as she is.

We are dealing with screaming issues with her, and it has nothing to do with me leaving her or that she doesn't know I am coming back, because she can be next to me and see me and still does it. But, do I expect her to always be that way, no I don't. But, still it is best for me to speak the truth on here rather than just paint a happy pretty picture if things are not.

As for her having Down Syndrome, I do not and will not treat her any different than my other children, yes, she may learn slower and differently, but if I treat her differently, then that will be her disability, not Down Syndrome, so please don't judge me saying that she is not the child I should have adopted.

So, please, if you have nothing nice to say, then don't say anything. If you want to ask me a question, then please ask.


  1. I really think people want rainbows and butterflies. You are blogging your thoughts and your opinion and some people only want the positive thoughts. Everyone is different and can take one thing you said and turn it into something totally unrelated. I think knowing the persons personality is key to understanding their thoughts. On a different note you mentioned how she cries more now. I read in another blog that they sedate many of the children to keep them calm not sure if that is the case for all the children

  2. I don't know what the comment was, but as someone who can TOTALLY relate to where you are, don't let anyone get you down. I know you well enough to know what a great mommy you are to ALL of your kids!!! If people want to judge you, then they should judge me too. Anyone who reads this, know something: THIS IS NOT EASY!!! God gives us what we need moment to moment and that is what sustains us. But if you think that you can do better, you should watch out. God has a funny way of knocking the pride right out of us. So, good luck to whoever wrote that comment, and I really think you owe Crystal an apology, because I have seen her in action, and there is nothing to criticize.

    You know I love you, girl! And I value your friendship, and I love that we are on this journey together ;)

  3. i don't know what the comment said either. i'm sorry that happened. josh saw her photo shoot pictures and said she is really blossoming.

  4. Boo hiss to whoever left that rude comment. If they don't like what you are saying, they should stay off of your blog. I appreciate your insight and honesty and have enjoyed following your blog-truths, triumphs, and all. You are awesome and Kaylee's pics are so stinkin cute!

  5. Not sure what was said but please know that you are loved & supported. Our thoughts & prayers are with you daily. I try to keep up with your updates daily (the good stuff & the hard stuff) so that we know how best to be praying & praising... ~Jen & Jonathan

  6. Don't know if this is the case, but I have run across folks who are VERY anti-adoption and they will leave nasty comments criticizing anything they can think of to drag you down and keep you from sharing with others who might be seeking. I've had my share. So sorry this happened to you! I know it sucks.

    You are so right though! she will be a different child in 6 months. you won't believe the difference and you are doing a great job right now :)

  7. I do not know what was said, and I am sorry that this person really upset you so much.
    Like I said before do not let this person get to you so much. They are not worth it.