I have been thinking of nothing but our little girl. All day, all night. When I am awake at night, I think and pray for her. I have even been dreaming about her.
I had the strangest dream the other night. I went to pick her up at the orphanage, but since they weren't supposed to know that I know about her, it was all hush hush. I wasn't even supposed to be there. They wouldn't tell me which room she was in. And they asked me all kinds of questions about her, like her hair color, name, eye color. After that, I had to go search for her. I was afraid I wouldn't know which child she was, since the picture I have is old.
As I was walking down the hall trying to find her, they turned out all the lights. It was so dark, and I couldn't see where I was going. They were telling me they were going to call the police, so I knew I had to find her fast.
I went into this room. It was so bright in there. And there were two children in cribs. The first child looked more like her, with blond hair, but I knew it wasn't her. It was the other child. She looked so different though. She had very dark hair. And the funny thing was, she had hair all over her face. But, I still wanted her. I picked her up and fell instantly in love with her.
Then I woke up. Very strange. Not sure why I had that dream, probably what I ate the night before. :)
I just can not wait to go meet her. I think we will be leaving in about 3 weeks! I cannot believe it. I hope we are ready. But, of course, if we aren't, it won't matter. We are still going.