What God has prepared for them. This is the verse that keeps coming to my mind lately. God has totally blown me away in the last few weeks. I have been reminded of things in my life that have brought me to where I am now.
My first memory is when I was 10, there was a boy named Yassin in my class that had what looked like cerebral palsy. He had forearm crutches. No one would play with him or talk to him, I remember becoming friends with him. I walked with him to lunch and anytime we were in the hall, I waited for him and walked with him. It wasn't fair to not have friends, so I became his friend.
When I was in 6th grade, there was a little girl in the special needs class, her name was Janie. I remember thinking she needed a friend. I don't know if she came from a family with money or not, or whether she had toys to play with. But, at the time, I remember thinking she needed something to play with, and I had plenty. So, I went home and got my best barbie and put it in a tissue box and wrapped it up. I remember giving it to her, like it was yesterday. I played with her after lunch. People even made fun of me, but I still played with her.
The Lord has reminded me of these memories, to show me that He had purpose in my life. It didn't just happen, it was orchestrated.
When I was 15, I was at church looking at the missionary bulletin board. That was when I decided I wanted to be a missionary. It stayed in my heart, until I was married. Josh didn't have a heart for missions like I did. He didn't want to just give everything away and live in a hut or an orphanage in Bolivia. Right after I met Josh, I went on a mission trip to Moldova. While there, I prayed and asked God what He wanted me to do. I loved Josh and wanted to marry him, but also wanted to know what God's plan was for my life. That was when I knew I was to marry Josh, but still didn't know what God's plan was for my life.
Josh and I are very different (if you know us, you know this is true), but have always agreed on the important things. Many times over the last few years I have wondered if I made a mistake. While, I was living the life I thought I wanted, being a wife and mother. But, I still felt like my dreams of doing great things for the Lord died.
That is until now. I see now that God has a purpose, it is even bigger than I had hoped, because it is MY purpose. It is why I was created.
I don't know what tomorrow holds or what ten years from now will look like, but what I do know is that I have a little girl that needs a mommy and I want to be her mommy. What I thought my life would look like was only a glimpse of what God has revealed to me.
God purposefully put me in those situations with children with special needs, to open up my heart to be compassionate to those that weren't like me. He gave me a heart to be a missionary so He could bring the nations to me, and I wouldn't fear traveling across the world to pick up His blessing. He put Josh and I together, because He knew what the future would hold and knew that ..."For such a time as this..."
What is your purpose? You have one. If it isn't plain to you, just know it is to God. If you don't know what to do, Do what you know to do.