Saturday, December 25, 2010

Her last Christmas

Today has been a hard day, and even as I write the title to this post, tears are coming. I have been reading others blog posts, some of who have brought their children home, or are now meeting their children, and some bringing their babies home this week. I am so beyond happy for them, but it grieves my heart to know that my sweet little baby is all alone this weekend, she doesn't even know we are coming for her. It is the weekend, I have heard that on the weekends the children sometimes stay in their cribs all day. Did anyone even tell her it was Christmas?

Well, baby girl, this is your last Christmas you will be spending by yourself. Next year, you will have a family. You will have a brother and a sister who already love you, pray for you and include you in their days. You will have a Grammy and Poppy, who are just as excited for you to come home as we are. You will have 2 cats that you can chase around. You will have a home that you can run and play, and be free to be whomever you want to be. You will have enough food to eat that your belly will never ache with hunger again. You will have more than enough arms to hold you. You will never have to live your days in a crib again. We wait for the day to meet you, and pray that it will be soon.

We love you.


  1. Praying for you Crystal. Take comfort in the fact that she is young and probably doesn't understand, and that she is young enough that she hopefully won't remember once she is home and in the loving arms of her Momma. I know that doesn't really make your grief any less, or make you miss her any less, but God will protect her for you. Hugs to you!! Hang in there.

  2. Thanks for putting my emotions in words! Spent my day crying for my baby too. Hang in there.

  3. I pray for yo and your little girl. Of course it must be hard to spend Christmas away from Priscilla. But soon, soon you will get to see her, hold her, love her- and by next Christmas there will be three little sweethearts around the tree, eagerly awaiting the presents.

    PS. Did you hear Leeza has a family? I am at a lack of words- it's so fantastic :)